helpless romantic?

gatau kenapa tergerak untuk denger playlist L.O.V.E di hp gw..ya sesuai judulnya, isi lagu2 di playlist gw ya lagu2 yang so sweet, happy lovey dovey tale lah..
terus pikiran gw melayang, secara belum ngantuk..dan terpikir untuk buat post iseng ini :D
intinya sih, postingan kali ini adegan2 yang terlintas di benak gw, sesuai dengan lagu yang lagi mengalun..
so..shall we?

1. spend my life with you
adegan yang gw bayangin, inspired dari adegan di film mr. and mrs. smith. inget adegan saat pagi setelah mereka tembak2an super seru paginya? no dialogue needed, just slow motion mode. senyum lepas, gerakan2 bahagia yang kecil..itu semua udah pas untuk gambarin, bahwa hidup gw bahagia, sempurna, bersama lo.

2. make you feel my love
adegan: latar belakangnya adalah jendela super besar yang memamerkan suatu padang rumput, terus di padang rumput itu ada pohon besar di tengahnya. karena lagi musim gugur, dan saat itu sudah mau sore, angin lagi berhembus pelan, menerbangkan helai2 daun yang berguguran..
dan gw akan menyanyikan lagu ini, sambil main piano, menatap lo yang berada di depan gw dan mendengarkan gw tentunya. awalnya gw akan masih agak malu-malu, kita ketawa kecil karena ini agak konyol dan ga nyangka gw bisa secheesy ini..tapi gw akan sungguh menyanyikannya, sampai lo tau, this unperfect me really loves you, and really want to make you happy to be with me.

3. you've fallen for me
yang ini akan agak berbeda, karena yang menyanyi adalah lo :D
dan seperti di filmnya, lo juga akan memainkan gitar..dan gw ga bisa berhenti tersenyum lebar, karena lagu ini kita banget.hhe..

4. (gada judulnya)
gw gatau ini judulnya apa. yang pasti penyanyinya brian mcknight. lagunya so sweet, setipe sama spend my life with you..kayaknya judulnya I will still in love with you, soalnya itu yg diulang2.
adegan yang gw bayangkan adalah saat perayaan ulang tahun pernikahan, atau saat pertunangan, pokoknya satu momen khusus..di mana kita bisa dansa romantis.dan di tengah lantai dansa itu, gw dan lo sedang berdansa diiringi lagu ini.I look amazingly beautiful, not only because I wear that awesome evening gown, but because of the girl's happiness for being in love.


ngeeeeeeennnnngggg..
gw jadi malu sendiri nulis2 beginian, jadi cukup segini dulu deh. hhe :D
mungkin masing2 lagu nanti akan ada postingannya sendiri..karena so far gw lagi suka dengan lagu2 ini (: oia for information, lagu pertama penyanyinya tamia ft. eric benet. lagu kedua adele, dan yang ketiga jung yong hwa, si vokalis slash leader cn blue, dan ini ost filmnya, heartstring.
mm I guess I better go to sleep right now..yah, semoga playlist gw kali ini bisa menghapus mimpi perusak tadi siang..amin!

ciao ;)

daftar lagu galau

akhirnya o akhirnya...gw membuat daftar ini juga. seharusnya, ini sudah gw kerjakan dari kapan tahu, kan janjian mau ngepost bareng si becca, tetapi waktu itu gw maunya dalam bahasa inggris. dan, kata 'galau' ini jadi dilema, karena ga dapet bahasa inggris yang sreg. ada sih 'hubbub', tapi kata bulenya langsung, 'hubbub' itu lebih ke arah ribut2 ricuh gimana gitu...which is jauh dari bayangan gw mengenai kata 'galau' -_________-


eins.
All We'd Ever Need by Lady Antebellum

But if you're happy I'll get through somehow
But the truth is that I've been screaming out

zwei.
Symphonie by Silbermond

Denn es ist Zeit
Sich ein zu gestehn dass es nicht geht
Es gibt nichts mehr zu reden denn wenn es regnet
Ist es besser aufzugeben

drei.
Simfoni Hitam by Sherina

Tlah kunyanyikan alunan-alunan senduku
Tlah kubisikkan cerita-cerita gelapku
Tlah kuabaikan mimpi-mimpi dan ambisiku
Tapi mengapa ku tak kan bisa sentuh hatimu

vier.
Wish You Were Here by Avril Lavigne

And I remember all those crazy things you've said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

fünf.
Officially Missing You by Tamia

I thought that from this heartache I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today I'm officially missing you

sechs.
Someday by IU

gwaenchanheul georago nae seuseuroreul wirohamyeo beotineun
haruharuga nal jogeumssik duryeopge mandeulgo
nareul mideurago malhamyeonseodo mitji motaneun naneun
ije eolmana deo orae beotil su isseulji moreugesseoyo

sieben.
Adagio by Lara Fabian

Non so dove trovarti
Non so come cercarti
Ma sento una voce che
Nel vento parla di te
Quest'anima senza cuore
Aspetta te
Adagio

acht.
Now You Know by Hillary Duff

Maybe this is bold
But I'm hoping you'll stay for a happy ending

neun.
Love Alone by Miss A

If it's an illusion I need you to tell me now
No room for confusion I need you to let it out

ini salah satu postingan gw yang paling lama gw tunda, yang sebenernya bahkan sudah gw pikirkan sebelum si becca minta gw bikin postingan ini. dan mungkin sebenernya ada lagu2 lain yang mau gw masukin di sini tapi tidak jadi, dan ada juga lagu di sini yang sebenernya ga terlalu gw masukin. sebenernya gw gamau bikin berurutan..tapi setelah jadi, gw tergerak untuk edit2 dikit, dan sepertinya jadi berurutan.

me and maturity

i was reading a book, titled antologi rasa, when i found an interesting quote. later, i tweeted that quote.

as we grow up, we learn that even one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will.

at that time, i agreed 101% with that quote. i kept it well, and made it one of my strongest base. well, i've been stuck in a silly point, where i thought i wasn't mature enough. but deep inside my head, i believed i was nowhere close to immaturity. i believed i just found out a weakness point, and i was ready to change it and be a better person. closer to maturity.

bullshit.

more knowledges would bring you closer to the truth. the truth, that you know nothing at all.
so, allow me change the quote..

as time goes by, we learn that even one person that we won't ever let down, probably will get knocked out hardest by our own self.

all this time, my thought was firm. maturity is gained, when you learn to suit yourself in any condition, without losing yourself. and when your maturity level, experience and knowledge are enough, you'll learn to control the situation, and don't have to suit yourself anymore, because it will be the one who tries to suit you.

but it isn't that easy, isn't it?

if all i have to do is suit myself to people who change, without losing myself...well, no offense, but i'm pretty good at it. sometimes i can't take it, but i still got it.
but, well..

i change too. it's myself i'm talking about. what, should i get myself used to my own self?
i really envy the people who can answer easily what the wanna do in the future. i envy people who can tell themselves comfortably. every time i do that, i can't stop myself from wondering is that really true?

it's a shame, but i'm cowardly pessimist about understanding my own self. how can i get myself used to myself?
once, my friend suggested me to take psychology major. which made me laughed my ass, because it was so silly. if he was only joking, it was relieving. but if he wasn't..it scared me to death. what have i done, to make him thought so? i really had troubles, that aren't easy to be solved. was i really that good in keeping those troubles away? or was he seeing it crystal clear, and that was the reason he asked me to take psychology? what??


i really don't know how to solve it. i really don't know what i wanna do next. and i don't know whether i want to know or not. maturity...
what is that?

especially for you

i wanna let you know what I was going through
all the time we were apart
i thought of you
you were in my heart
my love never changed
i still feel the same

in a rush

crap, i finally really get the feeling that i'm a student in univ. back when i'm still at high school or lower, i used to imagine things like coming late and sneaking in to class, sitting in the back just to continue my sleeping. or rush and beg the professor and God to accept my late assignment. meet new friends, talk about something smart, attend a wedding of m classmate.. and finally have my bachelor degree.
in fact, it doesn't happen. i can't just sneak in to class when i'm late, because the the classroom is so small and the fact we're only about 20 persons make the professor immediately realize your late coming and screw you straightly. i do meet new friends and, but we used to not do the 'smart talk'. i join an organization and i was like, crap, this whole thing is shit. the point is i'm disappointed but hell, like i care enough.
but finally today, i got the feeling of rushing to give away the late assignment. if you read the previous post, that's the same assignment that made me feel the rush. so i just finished m bath, even i only got towel wrapped up my body, when my friend called me and screamed out to tell me to collect the assignment right now. i was like, good God, and i told her to send me her email so i could send my assignment to her. then she could print it out and hand it to the professor, because she was already at univ. so i ran upstairs, turned on the laptop and sent it as fast as i can. as i was waiting for her response, she told me to call the professor first. actually i didn't think it was a good idea, but after a while i decided to do that. so i called the professor and when she knew that i wasn't at univ yet and, she told me to send the assignment direct to her email. so i did it, without believing it, how could it be so easy like this? and finally when i was done, i confirmed it to her and she only said 'ok', without anything else. i was so relieved. and on that very time, i realized...i still only had towel on my body.

it was really a scene to remember. well, no worries, i have my clothes on right now ;p

review film 2011

please ampuni pengetikan di post ini yang sepertinya agak mengacuhkan huruf 'y'..asli, gw tidak bermaksud begitu. sepertinya tuts huruf itu sedang agak ngambek slash ngadat, jadi mesti ditekan beberapa kali biar muncul. a kalo gw baik dan ngeliat, pasti gw usahain huruf itu tetep ada. tapi secara ini pagi, kemungkinan gw khilaf dan melewatkannya itu selalu ada..

anyway, merry new year everyone. dan di post ini, gw akan ngepost tentang film yang keluar di tahun 2011 dan sedikit ulasannya. gw juga tidak membagi film ini ke dalam segmen2 seperti best film, worst film, dkk..hanya sebatas yang gw inget (:

so...
shall we?

1. harry potter and the deathly hallows - part 2


film ini diawali dengan perencanaan sekaligus pembobolan trio harry-hermione-ron ke bank gringotts demi mencari hocrux. mereka berhasil kabur dan kemudian menuju ke hogwarts untuk mencari hocrux lainnya. di hogwarts, perang terbuka pun terjadi antara pengikut woldemort dan pendukung harry. akhirna setelah semua hocrux dimusnahkan, harry berhasil mengalahkan voldemort.
however, secara keseluruhan film sebenarnya bisa dikatakan gw agak kecewa. but no offense, i used to be disappointed with harry potter movie :p
gw menampilkan snape di sini..karena memang dia tokoh favorit gw di film ini. bahkan adegan dialah yang paling gw tunggu, melebihi adegan kekalahan voldemort. quote favorit gw sepanjang masa, dari semua jenis film dan buku, adanya juga di film ini (: pokoknya i love snape deh.
yah, gw menonton film ini dengan penuh perasaan sedih. bukan karena jalan cerita tapi apa..tetapi karena ini film terakhir harry potter. hiks..

2. rio


film ini bercerita tentang pelarian sepasang 2 ekor burung yang sudah hampir punah dari pencuri. dalam pelarian itu mereka mengelilingi kota rio de janeiro, bertemu teman2 baru, dan saling jatuh cinta.
tokoh favorit gw di sini adalah nico, si burung kecil kuning dengan topi tutup botol. scene favorit saat nico menyanyikan lagu fly love. gw langsung suka banget dengan lagu itu :D

3. the twilight saga : breaking dawn - part 1


film ini bercerita tentang pernikahan bella dan edward, dan berlanjut ke bulan madu yang 'rusuh'. sayangnya bulan madu itu terpaksa berhenti karena kehamilan bella. bella mempertahankan bayinya walau ia sekarat dan itu memancing perang dengan werewolf. karena membela bella, jacob melepaskan diri dari kawanan. akhirnya bella melahirkan juga anaknya, dan kemudian diselamatkan oleh racun edward. bella pun menjadi vampir.
adegan favorit saat tubuh bella pulih dan menjadi vampir. acungin semua jari(yang mirip jempol) buat visual effectnya. keren abis!

4. transformers : dark of the moon


film ini bercerita tentang usaha sentinel yang dibantu decepticon untuk menguasai bumi dan memulihkan cybertron. usahanya digagalkan oleh optimus prime dkk, sam witwicky dan para tentara amerika lainnya.
yang pertama gw sorot, adalah cewek baru witwicky. no offense, gw jauuuh lebih suka sama megan fox daripada doi. baik secara tampang, akting dan chemistry di film. however, gw suka jalan ceritanya. bagian sedih dan mengharukannya entah kenapa 'ngena'. akting si labeouf bagus lah, dia bener2 jadi terkesan pemuda amerika biasa, bukan artis hollywood. menurut gw, susah loh itu. banak banget film dengan pemain oke dan akting super keren, tetapi tetep ngebawa 'aura' artis..ngerti ga? begitulah.

5. x-men : first class


film ini mengisahkan para tokoh x-men, jauh saat mereka masih muda. sulit disangka si ganteng mr.tumnus akan jadi botak dan sipit gitu pas tua. jadi ini kisah tentang usaha para mutan dalam mengalahkan mutan jahat, yang ingin memancing perang antara amerika dan rusia. kisah ini diakhiri dengan runtuhna persahabatan yang sempat terjalin antara profesor x dan magneto.
gw sukaaa banget sama si pemeran charles xavier. manis bener..sayang pasangannya kurang cantik. untung mereka ga jadian :p

6. friends with benefits


film ini bercerita tentang dylan yang pindah ke new york dan bertemu dengan jamie. mereka berteman baik, sampai akhirna pun menjadi teman seks. pertemanan seks ini pun berakhir dengan keduanya yang saling jatuh cinta.
film ini sering dibandingkan dengan no strings attached yang dirilis duluan pada tahun yang sama. tentu saja film ini menang! memang ini bukan film yang masuk kategori bagus banget, tetapi film ini sangat laak ditonton para penyuka film bergenre komedi romantis yang berkualitas. chemistry antar pemain oke, adegan vulgarnya juga lebih condong ke lucu, jadi tidak membuat orang jengah melihatnya. gosipnya, mila kunis dan justin timberlake cinlok loh di film ini hhi ;)

7. fast and furious 5


kali ini brian, dom, dkk berbuat ulah di rio de janeiro. lebih jauh, mereka mencari gara2 dengan penguasa kota rio, reyes, sementara mereka dikejar2 oleh tim fbi. akhirnya, tim fbi dan dom bersatu, merampok duit reyes dari kantor polisi. tentu saja perampokan berhasil sukses, dan mereka semua menjalani kehidupan mewah di negara2 tanpa perjanjian ekstradisi.
filmnya keren, btw. gw belum nonton semua seri fast furious secara komplit, jadi ga bisa membanding2kan.

8. easy a


olive, seorang siswi 'biasa', terpaksa mengarang cerita bohong bahwa ia sudah pernah berbuat seks. sialnya, cerita didengar orang lain dan disebarluaskan. ia pun mendapat cap perempuan nakal. karena kesal akan semua gosip, ia benar2 merubah dirinya menjadi nakal. namun akhirnya ia menghentikan semua sandiwara itu lewat pengakuan di youtube berkat cowok cinta pertamanya.
gw suka film ini!! hha :D gw bener2 feminist abis..tapi gw suka! seorang cewek ang akhirnya membuktikan diri setelah dicap macem2..dan sempat kembali 'bertobat' sebelum terlambat. smurf it :D

9. catatan harian si boy


film ini bercerita tentang persahabatan satria dengan temen2 kerjanya di bengkel. kemudian dia bertemu dengan natasha, dan berdua mereka mencari tau pemilik dari sebuah buku harian tua untuk ibunya natasha yang sedang sakit. konflik muncul karena pacar natasha yang cemburu dengan boy dan menghancurkan bengkel. pada akhirnya ditemukan pemilik buku harian, boy.
filmnya bagus, walau gw sejujurnya kurang suka dengan keberadaan carissa putri. satu film indonesia yg berhasil membuktikan kesuksesan tanpa embel2 seks atau horor slash komedi.

masih ada film2 lain, dan gw juga senang hati menulis..tetapi sudah terlalu pagi, kawan. apalagi gw masih belum mengerjakan tugas, padahal akan dikumpulkan beberapa jam lagi. dan gw juga belum tidur. so..kalau sempat akan gw lanjutkan. atau kalau tidak, ada cerita lain. udah ada sih ide2, tapi belum kesampaian aja. :D

so..
see ya (:

another dot

it just needs a few days, to change your admiration and crush into a whole new level: love.

even I try my best to avoid that word. but you feel it. you think about it. you write it down.
you've really fallen for her. wow.

it's not like I'm gonna bother you, or even myself. I'll just be here.

I'll be ready.

Kindheit - eine Fragebogen für Erwachsene

Also, gestern hatte ich über Generation in der Klasse sprechen. Dann habe ich eine Aufgabe vom Sprachtraining gemacht. Ich finde es interessant, deshalb schreibe ich diesen Schreiben jetzt. Es tut mir leid, wenn ich viele Fehler an diesen Schreiben mache. Prost!


Was war dein größter Wunsch?
Damals wünsche ich sehr, ein Fahrad zu haben. Aber meine Eltern waren dagegen.
Und jetzt ist mein größter Wunsch Reisen durch weltweit.

Was mochtest du gar nichts?
Das war schlecht, wenn ich Gemüse essen musste.
Jetzt will ich einfach keine schlechten Noten nehmen.

Was wolltest du werden?
Als ich noch klein war, hatte ich sehr viele Träume. Ich würde Ingenieurin, ich würde Pilotin, ich würde Lehrerin, und so weiter.
Aber jetzt kenne ich nicht eigentlich was ich werden will. Ich möchte so viel erzählen, zum Beispiel wie ich eine Reiseführerin werde. Oder eine Botschafterin. Aber nicht jetzt. Vielleicht will ich später erzählen.

Wovor hast du als Kind Angst gehabt?
Ich hatte Angst vor Ondel-ondel.
Eigentlich kenne ich nicht was ich antworten soll. Heute kann ich Ondel-ondel akzeptieren, und ich denke auch, dass ich nicht über diese Sache sprechen. Wofür sage ich dir, wovor ich Angst heute habe, oder?
Aber ja, ich habe Angst vor dem großen Feuer.

Welche Musik hast du damals gerne gehört?
Ich horte gerne alle Musik bis heute. Aber ich mag sehr Latin, Jazz, Klassik und so weiter.

Was hast du als Kind am liebsten gegessen?
Ich aß gerne Nudeln. Jetzt ist mein Lieblingsessen Sushi. Aber eigentlich esse ich gerne alle, deshalb bin ich dick :p

Wen hättest du damals gerne kennen gelernt?
Es ist komisch, aber als Kind hätte ich sehr gerne Meisy getroffen. Jetzt möchte ich J.K. Rowling kennen lernen. Und ich möchte auch wirklich mit den koreanischen Sängern treffen.

my lost-and-found handy

moral lesson: don't trust guys. even your own father. well, except Jesus.

if you guys didn't know it yet, I lost my handphone for about one week. it was wednesday. when I already got into the bus, I realised my handy wasn't in my pocket. then I felt sudden worry. I checked all my pocket, but it wasn't there. I opened my bag, and it wasn't there either. I started panicking.

I remembered, when I stood in the line to get into the bus, people were so crowded. they pushed me really hard, it was a real chaos. unfortunately, I was raising my hands because I got paper to be crossed to, my homework.

that time, I knew that I should tell the guard that I lost my phone. but something kept me. I thought it would be really silly if I actually lost my handy at home. but deep down, I didn't think so. my phone wasn't at home, and I wasn't bringing it either.

luckily, I met a friend of mind there. and then I asked him to call my phone. but I didn't find it yet. I also met my senior, and I borrowed her phone to call mine. and I really didn't have it.

when I came into class, I borrowed my friend's phone and tried to call my phone back. actually I wanted to call my parents or my sister to ask if I actually left it at home, but I forgot their number because of panic.

after all my classes finished, I went to my church. my mother should have her women service that day. unfortunately, the aunts there told me that my mother wouldn't come. then I come to my student's house for tutor. there I told her that I lost my phone and I borrowed her phone to call my mother. and after minutes...she told me my phone wasn't at home. NO!!!

when I got home, I did my own research. but still, I couldn't find it. I was really angry...but somehow it didn't show. all disappoint, anger, sadness...it didn't show. and on that very time, I realised I still got problem with my emotion.

and another thing I realised, now I could buy another handy. I already knew what handy I would buy. it would be a blackberry too. but this time, I would have the black one. and it would be a flip flop one. just like my friends jejel and okti had. my favourite one (:

next wednesday, when I already fell asleep, my mother and sister marched into my room and woke me up. they talked in the same time and I didn't really listen to them. all I heard was something like father...my...handphone...miracle...
and they handed out my handy.

I tried to get up, and listened more carefully to their talk. then my father came in. and all the talks became clear.

my father kept my handy all this time.


every day, my father drove me in the bus stop with his motorcycle. and that day, after he drove me in as usual, he rode back to home. when he was stopping in traffic light, someone poked him and told him that his hand was about to drop. and there it was, my handy, on the back seat, right above the lamp. which you know, above the lamp means it locates really at back.

so he took it...and the 'brilliant' idea popped out. he hid my handy, he didn't tell my mother, nor my sister, especially me. I remembered that day, right after I got home I asked him first, if I left my handy in his office or whatever. he answered, NO, not at all.
guys.
so typical.

so now, I got my handy back. nothing was taken away, not my pulse. and now I'm writing down this story on this handy.

so...
thanks, Father
and father.


P.S: I knew it will have wrong typing, but I'm too lazy to edit it. so, I'm sorry :D but I hope you still understand the story.